Vent:o(

So my DH and I have been ttc for 4 cycles now. Even though it is a short time, I still feel anxious and a bit worried that I will have problems. I was on bcp's for almost ten years and never missed a pill. I wish someone would've have warned me about bcp. Since getting off I've gained weight, had constant headaches (first two cycles off) and honestly have no clue if I am ovulating. This is my first cycle charting and I am on CD13. Took 2 OPK so far in the last three days and both were negative. I really want this and I know I must be patient but there are times througout the month that it gets me down. I truly leave it in gods hands. I will continue going to the gym and taking steps to be healthier. I just wish I was in my twenties and not in my early thirties, then I wouldn't feel like time is flying. Wishing for an O and a big fat "P' this cycle.